The Greatest Challenge
Fortunately, it has been a while since I woke up and the first thing I did was starting to cry... Unfortunately, it happened again this morning, and I am still crying. If I ask myself why am I crying I don't really know the motive, but I feel helpless, worthless and somehow eager that life ends because clearly I'm not up to this challenge. I know I'm being a whinny, that my life is not that hard, actually is not hard at all... I live in a beautiful home that I built for myself, I have plenty of food and water and even though I got covid, my health is good... many people are dealing with worse. But it feels so hurtful that I can't find my reason to live, something to fight for a goal... at least when someone hurts me, I find strength in the pain to fight back, to change my trajectory, but this helpless pain of being alive for no reason digs up a hole in me that only gets bigger and bigger, because it leads me only to more weakness, and I can’t seem to find the reason t...